Why only with me

I Don't know why you enjoy Smothering me.
I Don't know why you like Toying with me.

I Don't know what the pleasure you seek of me.
I Don't know why you Bleeding the heart in me.

Am I even considered a human to be alive, or am I just a toy.
is my heart considered to have feelings, or is it a Piece of Meat.

I don't know if you do or not, I don't know you want to kill me or not.
what all I know is every moment you make me Bleed too bad.

I don't know to blame you or not, I don't know is it me or you.
I know if any one is to blame, its just the Love I had for you.

When you Laughing at me; I thought you being happy cause of me.
When you Criticizing me; I thought you wanted to see best of me.

When you taking me for Granted; I thought you accepted me for being me.
When you not Sharing with me; I thought you were just trying to test me.

When you being Angry at me; I thought your innocence taking its toll on me.
When you Cheating on me; I thought you wanted to explore jealousy of me.

How wrong I was....How wrong can I be, I can't believe it came upon me.
I now know how blind I was in love, I know you are just playing with me.

I don't know these wounds you left will heal or not.
I don't know this piece of meat will ever beat or not.

I don't know why I m being punished and its happening Only with me.
I don't know what the life has against me,
does it Hate me, or is it just trying to tease me, or is it taking its toll on me.

I don't know...I don't know, I am just too Numb, fed up of Life, Love and Me.
I know I want to be Dead, but life is not leaving me;
I want you to pray; just do one first and last favor for me.

Just ask God: this very moment to chose death for me;
cause the way you are hurting me,
death seems more easier than just living being me.